Sarah, over at OneStarryNight, made a wonderful post today dubbed “Blogger’s Fear Themselves” that really made me think about something that has been bothering me on and off. So I figured I’d blog about it myself.

She pointed out the thought of shifting from being a “tell it all” blogger to censoring one’s words. My mom always nags about not putting things on my blog that could one day come back to bite me. Mostly to do with the fact that people hiring for jobs these days check out people’s online lives. IE: Facebook, Twitter, blogs, etcetera. I have a pretty active online social life. Between my games, facebook, twitter, blogging, and other avenues I put a lot of information out there about myself.

I’ve always been very open – especially online. I feel “safer” online. Ha, no I don’t mean safety from retaliation or backlash. I mean.. I’ve never been good at oral communication. I’ve gotten much better at it since I became an “adult” but I was and still am to a degree very introverted. But online I am able to pour out my heart and soul without having to worry about stumbling over my words, crying from frustration, and various other horrid side effects that people witness when they try to get me to talk.

Once upon a time you could throw any topic at me and I wouldn’t care. You could ask me the most intimate of questions and I would answer you, blatantly, honestly, and without hesitation. But since people have entered my little world a side of me has kicked in that I sometimes wish would well.. piss off.

I’m a Libra, through and through. I do not like confrontation. I will avoid it like the plague. Even if it means causing myself unbearable agony. I will bottle every little thing up until I burst… and then I’ll continue to do it. I want the people around me to be happy, even if it means I’m not allowed to be. And this trait has caused me more trouble than it’s probably worth in most cases. Yet I still feel the need to do it.

I can honestly say I miss being brave enough to just throw myself out there. I’ve never liked the thought of being accepted as a half truth. I’ve never liked having to censor myself. And I’ve never liked having to worry about what anyone thinks of me. And to be honest only two people really matter in that respect. But it’s an interesting display of dominoes. One topples onto another and it all becomes a grapevine, ending in the arrival of drama into my life. Drama that I don’t need and definitely don’t want.

So who knows how long it will last. But for now, I’ll keep the peace and not throw myself wildly out to the wind.

Obviously, the hubby had a nice long weekend due to the holiday. Thursday we took a six mile bike ride up to the base park for a command picnic. We played with the soccer ball, ran around, ate, and generally had a good time. (Then we biked the six miles back :P) We’ve been cleaning the house throughout the weekend and last night we went to the downtown park to listen to the fleet bands and watch the fireworks. We had some uber nummy shaved ice (strawberry for me and dragons blood for Joshua) with some oh my gawd delicious fresh lemonade.

Overall it’s been a good weekend. We had a few little tiffs but nothing major. The weather has been nice and our outings pleasant. And I got my package from Victoria’s Secret – and it fits!! Woooo! Yes, I’m very freaking excited that it fits. Now, I’m not sure I have the balls to where it in public yet… with my big ol fat belly heh. Need to start working out regularly. I’ve been working out plenty with all the biking but not on a regular schedule. I have some yoga and dance things I want to do on rotation in addition to elliptical, at least three times a week. We’ll see how that goes since I’m starting tonight.

Well, since not many people entered there was no reason to randomize Instead, both Angel and Emily get a blue-green necklace (my sneaky self just so happened to have another blue-green bead )! Look to your inboxes ladies and congrats!

Alright, it’s late but whatever. TADA!!! I’m giving away two inviso-line necklaces, one in pink and one in blue-green. These necklaces will be custom fitted to the winners (I’ll have you measure your neck) so no need to worry about whether it will fit you or not.

Both necklaces are made from glass beads, fishing line, and silver bar and circle closures. They are made to fit close to the neck letting the bead rest between the clavicles.

Pink Bead

Pink necklace Pink closure

Blue-green bead

Blue-green closure Blue-green necklace

There are three ways to enter this giveaway and thus you have three chances to win! And here is how:

1. Post a comment on this entry. Your comment should include which one you would like to win (pink or blue-green).
2. Promote the giveaway on Twitter! Use whatever wording you like, simply come back and post another comment with a link to the tweet.
3. Promote the giveaway by posting on your blog. Be sure to include the link back, feel free to use the photos, and include some info about why you want to win and why others should enter.

Simple as 1, 2, 3? Yep! Entries will come to a close on Friday, July 2nd, 2010 at 12:00p.m. EST. The winners will be chosen via random selection and announced by 10p.m. that night!

Good luck to everyone who enters!