Okay soooo it’s 3:16a.m. and it’s Friday which means that tonight is Vampire: The Masquerade night and I need to be awake and alert and present in tonight’s game because I wasn’t there at all last week (I was way too tired to play). And I have some good RP for why I was missing but I have some catching up to do. Victoria is progressing in her abilities and now she just needs to really use them. BUT more importantly I need to be there and enjoy this game because we’re only going to have a couple more sessions before it’s over and Nate goes away. I am however thinking on making my own Vamp campaign for later. We’ll see. In the meantime Joshua has been working rather hard on the story for the BESM (big eye, small mouth) campaign and from what I’ve heard it’s going to be really good.

In other news I have not added anything to the baby list cause I don’t know what to add. I am going to be posting it on a page here soon so that I can share it with the relatives n such. I’ve been reading a lot about the natural & attachment parenting ideals and I’ve made some decisions. Definitely breast feeding until self weaning, no vaccinations, no circumcision. The circumcision thing is kinda awkward to me cause honestly I’ve always preferred the circumcised look however, after reading about it and some articles about lost sensitivity and such, I wonder WHY I thought that, ya know? And on the breast feeding topic, you can bet yer butt I’ll have no qualms about doing it in public. Though I did put a hood on my list. I don’t need weirdos staring at me feeding my baby and thinking creepy thoughts.. and I know damn well they do it! As for the vaccinations, I’ve never been a fan and after reading about all the crap that is in those shots, yeah no. Just no. The fact that we even do that to ourselves and our children is disgusting.

Anyhow, no soapbox moments! I’m excited about learning more. It’s rare that I’m this excited about anything but I can honestly say, I’m ready. My life may not be ready but I am. Once our finances are in order it’s happening. That’s for sure. But until then I am going to read and read and talk and learn. Definitely something I need to be prepared for.

In other news…. I don’t think I’ve mentioned it but on YouTube there is a channel called The Curvy Girls and its all women loosing weight and one of the girls is pregnant so they needed a new girl to fill the spot and ta da! that girl is me. Oddly enough I, Keeshia, am replacing Kecia, who is pregnant and due to have a baby on my birthday lol! Crazy isn’t it? But next week is when I’ll start doing videos with them so I’ll be also linking them here so that you can all watch.

My goal is to get back down to between 116-120 pounds and I’m currently 166. I’d like to get there by my birthday which is September 24th, which is doable but we’ll see. I definitely want to be there by the end of the year which honestly will take very little effort so if I really hunker down and do this it’ll go much faster. I haven’t really started yet simply cause I’m trying to get things in order, you know.. line up all my ducks before I shoot them (lol, poor duckies). There is a lot I need to change about my daily life including schedule, diet, exercise, homework, etc and it’s all sort of overwhelming me (gah!) so for now I’m sort of just taking it slow. I think when I move into the new office and I have everything I need for the day in one place it will be a lot different.

I don’t know if I’ve mentioned it so you might be confused. New office? Yeah I’ve decided the end of the hall bedroom is too small for me so when Nate leaves I’m taking the bigger room as my office and turning the smaller one into the guest room (which I am actually going to fix up and make look nice for our guests). The bigger room will allow me to have more desk/work space plus three other areas: music, workout, and reading. The music section will have my keyboard & flute, the workout my elliptical and yoga ball/mat/medicine ball, and the reading will have my reading chair and bookcase. And yeah, there really is room for all four stations. Woot! Can’t wait.

I sound rather meticulous about it. But really, I don’t get things done very easily unless everything is right. I have to have enough space, good light, be comfortable, etc. to really be productive. It’s a pain the rear I tell you. But when all the conditions are met I jackhammer stuff out like a madwoman. Like 10+ hour coding sprees or short stories or whatever. I’m a beast when things are right. It’s why I move my things around so much (to the irritation of people around me). The change helps. What can I say, I’m weird. Not like ya’ll didn’t know that to begin with!

I’m ready for change. Now I just have to work for it. Night night!