Yeah, I know I haven”t been blogging and that is mostly because I didn”t really want to without having something worth writing about – as opposed to my usual random bantering. But apparently people that read my junk (few as they may be) like my randomness. So, here is a post of randomness for you.

I am still out of work. It is now getting very close to the one year mark (mid-december) and in that year I have had TWO interviews. Two. Now, I know the economy has been shit, that people don”t really want to hire, but come the F on! I have applied for some the simplest jobs. Ones I know won”t pay much but that won”t really be so intensive work wise that they should. And still not even a phone call or a rejection email. You cannot tell me I”m not qualified to work at the grocery store and you can”t tell me you don”t want to hire me because I”m “over qualified” when I knowingly applied to a lower paying job. WHY DO YOU THINK I APPLIED? DUH! I need just enough money to cushion the ends of my budget and I”d like a job where I don”t really have to think very much. I do enough of that all day long for school.

Last session of classes was alright. One of my classes was.. essentially useless to me, but that”s the life of a college student isn”t it? I really think that when 95% of a class states at the end of it that they don”t think they will ever use what you taught them again – the class should be deleted and I should get a free class in something worth while. (Lawlz, like that”ll ever happen) This session is rather good though. I have a C++ class and a Web Server Admin (Apache) class and I”m enjoying both.

My PMDD this month is completely throwing me for a loop. The meds help a little but for the most part I feel.. uncontrolled. I”ve had horrible mood swings that are exaggerated by the fact that nobody in my household seems to understand that it”s not something I can just stop doing. Do you have any inclination how shitty it is to walk around feeling like someone just died and not have any reason at all to feel so sad? How about walking down the hallway and randomly wanting to punch a hole in the wall until your knuckles bleed? Or how about seeing something completely random with absolutely no attachments… like say, a duck in a pond, and wanting to start hysterically crying? And how about not being able to restrain that and you just start blubbering in public for no apparent reason? No, you don”t know what it feels like. So please stop trying to tell me “stop it” and stop making it worse by constantly asking me what”s wrong and not accepting it when I say nothing. Cause it is nothing I have absolutely no reason to feel the way I do, I just DO.

Now, on a different note. I have seen some good stuff lately so here we go.

2012

Not bad. Exceeded my expectations since they were pretty low. I thought it was going to be just another dumb and pointless apocalyptic movie but it actually had a good storyline and some pretty decent acting. Rating:

Twilight: New Moon

Went to see this Thursday night and aside from the asinine comments of the crowd and the coos of obviously undersexed females, it was really pretty good. I think they”re still over-dramatizing the sexual aspects of the movie while underplaying the actual content (IE other interactions) but it was worth my money. I will admit however that Taylor Lautner was exceptionally gorgeous in the movie ha! And for those of you who know me, it is exceedingly rare that I am attracted to a brown boy. Can”t believe the boys not even legal yet… (PS: If you didn”t know the next one comes out next June) Rating:

The Fourth Kind

I think most of you know by know that I”m a fantasy/sci-fi/horro film nerd so it should come as no surprise that I really wanted to see this movie and huzzah! It was good! I actually really enjoyed watching it. It was kind of weird and somewhat creepy to think that this stuff could be real. I really loved the direction and the acting was really quite good for this type of film. Kind of had a docudrama feel with the footage inserted. Rating:

Gamer

Storyline was really a lot better than most of these gaming type movies. Of course Gerard is a joy to watch any time but it was nice to see him again in an action role as opposed to the romance he”s been doing (not that he”s any less nice to look at in those movies). Oddly enough I didn”t know Dexter was going to be in this and I was ever more surprised to hear him talking with a twang (lawlz) but it was a nice surprise. The concepts in the film were intriguing, both the playable killers AND the crazy playable whore type thing. Rating: