I’ve been trying, really, I have. Trying to be a better person, a better student, a better wife. Always trying. But you know what? Some times I just feel like it’s getting me nowhere. This probably has a lot to do with the fact that I’ve been kinda “iffy” lately, with the PMDD junk and such. But who knows. My life and mood have been so up and down over the last year that I have no idea whats going on. There’s no stability. No point of reference, if you know what I mean.

Wine colored halter dress

But anyway! I was semi-productive last night! I pulled out this dress that I’ve had for like.. three years now. I bought it at Ross and it had a faulty zipper so it was like.. five bucks or something ridiculously cheap. So I picked up, walked my butt over to Walmart (at that point I was still living next door to one) and got a new zipper for it. I had the zipper pinned in place and then for some reason I never got around to sewing it! Well I pulled it out last night and finished it. It’s so pretty. I love it. Problem is my ass has gotten fat (more like my gut) and while I can squeeze into it, it doesn’t look flattering lol. So it is handing on my office door, waiting. Motivation? Yes, it is. Pity I haven’t gotten my elliptical up here yet. That’s a task for tomorrow (since I have to take it apart).

In addition to the dress I quickly whipped together a pillow for a new dog bed for Lani (my chihuahua/dachshund, who by the way mom I’m not getting rid of. I’ll just bitchslap someone if they keep misbehaving). She’s enjoying it. I didn’t sew it up all the way so that I can take it apart to be washed and such. (I don’t have an extra zipper lying around to do it that way, unfortunately)

And hey, I finally finished my laundry (though technically I haven’t put it AWAY yet…) which is pretty quick for me. It only took like.. three days. LOL!! Yes, that is quick for me… Shut up. I don’t need you judging me!

So I have a doctors appointment with what I affectionately call the “Coochie doctor” lol. Yes I mean the GYN. And I have no idea if it’s the same one I saw last time. I’m going to ask about whether there is additional medication I can take to try and keep my PMDD in check. I’m not sure whether anti-depressants are going to sit well with me.. but it’s worth a shot right? If it doesn’t work well I can stop taking them and it doesn’t cost me anything. But if it does work I have a better quality of life. YAY! I’m also going to ask about this chronic fatigue shit. I’m sure they’ll just tell me to improve my diet and exercise but I’d like to know that, if that doesn’t work, what I can do to help it out. I’m honestly tired of sleeping so much. I feel like life is just passing me by.

School is going alright. For the most part I’m still keeping up with things. As always I could be doing more and getting better but you know how that goes. I’m enjoying my Ethics class now to be honest. We’ve gotten into real scenarios and such so it makes it so much more interesting.

Now to go blog elsewhere ;)