Holy crap! I’m usually spending time with Joshua on the weekend because, well lets face it during the week up not awake in the morning to be with him, and I only spend one or two hours with him before bed each night. But today he wanted to go to the local beer fest/tasting event with friends from work. I had seen the ad for it on Facebook about mid-week and was going to suggest it to him, but he ended up bringing it up first. Luckily we had some wiggle room this pay day to let him go (it’s 30 bucks a ticket).

I feel weird though! I’m used to being pestered on the weekend lol. But he’s been gone for almost three hours now and still has another hour till the festival ends. I don’t know wth to do with myself! Well, it doesn’t help that I feel like complete shit either.

I didn’t even get out of bed until 3:30pm. I don’t know why but I’ve been having really bad sleep. And that means something considering I am like, the Grandmaster of Sleep. I can sleep for days, literally, and not mind one bit. In fact I can wake up and go right back to sleep most of the time. But lately, since the switch in my medications, I have had absolutely terrible sleep. I sleep very long periods, in choppy 3 or 4 hours spurts, and with crazy dreams. This week, every night, I have woken up from a dream soaking wet with sweat. My dreams are literally stressing me out so much I sweat.

A lot of my dreams have had to do with being unable to use my legs or trying to find Joshua. Both of which have sent me into a panic while dreaming, and thus the sweating. It’s really quite disturbing. Not to mention uncomfortable and gross.

So I’ve decided to stop taking the Prozac and see if my sleep returns to normal. I can take stress when I’m awake, but I can’t take my sleep being so disruptive. If I don’t sleep well I can’t function throughout the day. And if I can’t function throughout the day I don’t get anything done. I was supposed to go in to see whether we’d continue the meds but I figure I won’t even bother. While it does help throughout the daytime, I refuse to compromise my nighttime.

Maybe it’ll be back to square one. Or maybe things will have changed in this short period of time. We’ll just have to wait and see.